Disguised Blessing.

I was on a monthly visit to the super market with my parents ( Its been like a mini picnic since we landed at hyd), when something unusual happened. We came out with four huge bags, dumped them in the dikki and went to drink sugarcane juice. Just as we stepped out of the shop,a lady came running towards my Mom. My Mom moved away in defense and the lady was talking slowly taking ample of breaks to breath.

My Mom would hear none and sat into the front seat of the car. She pleaded looking at me and started telling that she wasn't a beggar. She then told us that, she was suffering from liver cancer and was finding it difficult to even move. But, she wanted to secure her son's future and leave him at her sister's house in Bangalore. She had her adoption papers in her hand. She just wanted Rs. 70, which would help her save some money and help her son reach Bangalore. All this was narrated in English.

It could have been a ploy, but her eyes were pleading for help. There was too much pain in them. She was well read, which could be easily guessed with the way she communicated. It left me wondering about a lot of things and how everything turns upside down in matter of seconds? How somethings are never in our hands?

It made me feel blessed. Yes, I should have felt that way before I saw her, but I was too caught in my own thought web that I was shutting myself up because somethings were going in a different direction. I kept thinking about things that weren't going my way all the time sidelining all the achievements or love that I have been blessed with. It feels good to count your blessings because at times life has to be looked from different angles.

All the things that have been happening over the past one week has been an experience. Things are changing rapidly and luckily I'm coping through them very well. Its not easy to leave everything behind, but when you have made the choice you've made it. There's no looking back.

These small things are making me realize some big things in life.

Just before she left, she looked at me and said "God Bless You" and I silently prayed for her well being all the while thanked her for what she had taught.

When your let down, look around and look at the people who think you are their reason for living. You'll have a very being reason to smile.

In the end everything will fall into place and you'll know why exactly things didn't happen the way you wanted. Also, not everyone is as blessed as you are. So, smile not getting a message from your crush, not getting your favourite ice cream or not getting the clothes you wanted for some body's pajama party is no reason to be sad. There is something more to life than these things. The minute you realize that, you'll get a better control over life and its share of ups and downs.

Mission Accomplished.

The mission has been accomplished. 

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I got into my dream college. I had no hopes of getting through, considering my deadly GK paper and the dreadful interview. Doesn't matter anymore. They decided to look beyond my screwed up but insightful answers and took me in. YAY! It hasn't sunk in yet. So, my celebration would go a little different. Each time I realise what's happening, I go crazy and scream and laugh and blabber, thus causing irritation-which-cannot-be-expressed to my entire family who are asleep or trying to not open their eyes. 

Coming to the interview.

The scene was like this:

It was a panel interview. They were 3 very old people, 1 middle aged and 1 mid 20's female. 

This was how they sat, with an addition at the left hand side. They were extremely sweet and grilled me in a very sweet way as well. I had not prepared at all. I never prepare for interviews. The answers are always spontaneous. 

I very confidently walked into the room, sat down and they started shooting questions. I answered all of them real quick, except for the last one. The question was, why the GDP had gone down? And I slumped. After a lot of thinking and blanking out totally I gave them a very sheepish smile saying INFLATION (that was the only remote idea I had about GDP ). The man in the middle chuckled and said what about exports. And I caught the point and said global economy has gone down and the importing countries have no money, so, the GDP has gone down. He smiled and said I'm done. And I smiled as at how I managed to answer from the blink of the black hole. 

Now, a BIG Thank You to everybody who stood by me, bore my nonsense and extreme mood swings. You guys are awesome. My Mom who truly believed that I could make through when everybody said I was making a blunder and Dad for being my strongest support even though he's still not convinced with my decision. AND a big special thank you to my biggest critique and the official holder of the world's most awesome person. You are the best person I have ever known. Thank you for being there.

Its celebration time. I'm smiling from end to end and can't stop beaming. So, I get into one of Asia's premier institutions. AWESOME.

Chennai Calling.

To hold on or to let go

Perhaps, part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight for so long, is because we fear that something so great wont happen twice.




Part of a reason why we let something go, is because we get tired of holding something tight while we are let hanging in the loose.


To let go or to hold on, depends upon the people who are involved. If a decision is made to hold on, it should be a mutual one and not a singular one. 


To hold on is any day tougher that to let go. To let go is liberating if emotional strings are cut off.


Hold on, if you know its worth it. Let go, if you can.